Thursday, May 03, 2007
Why cant you get it through your thick head to leave me alone. Honestly i dont care to be polite or civil anymore because i'm growing tired of your harassment. Call it what you must but if you're going to harass me daily or every alternate day its not working. Classic -IF I HARASS HIM LONG ENOUGH HE"LL GROW TO LIKE MY COMPANY- retardation theory. Retardation Maximation.
Get it through your stupid thick head i dont want to talk to you, because you. annoy. Me. thats all. IF you'da left me alone i'd still be more civil. Its all your fault frankly, i asked you to just leave me be for a while but you kept probing so i said BACK OFF, and you didnt. You got your friends whom i trusted to dig information from me. Congratulations.
You succeeded in getting it. You came, asked, HOW COULD YOU SAY THAT err i was already being sensitive with my words and because i trusted the other person i told her the honest truth though softened with well chosen ambiguous words. You dug it out and you want to be hurt by it. Thats your own problem, i never wanted to say it. You were never meant to hear it. Anyhow, Congratulations again.
You've succeeded in not only losing my trust in yourself but also my trust in your friends. Though i wont blame them because, they were perhaps trying to be good friends or didnt see the whole situation in its entirety. Losing someone's trust is just the breaking point. You saying I FORGIVE YOU when i feel its clearly not any fault of mine, perhaps if i was to be generous to you i would say i shouldnt have pushed you off so bluntly BUT the repercussions and consequences of late have been no fault of mine. Asking CAN WE GO BACK TO BEING NORMAL LIKE BEFORE isnt going to change the fact you lied cheated and doublecrossed your way into my private zone.
I've never suggested anything of that nature perhaps i was a little careless and certain situations might have given you a silly notion like that but i've always made sure i hinted that its nothing more. Perhaps that was my bad not to realise you were THAT thick not to get it, perhaps i assumed girls were more perceptive. Apparently, not the case. If i want to put it blatantly, you annoy me because you're too damn slow and i end up going too fast but thats all right, i understand people are sometimes slower in grasping ideas. It isnt easy having to entertain a 5 year old 24/7 everyday especially when i'm not perhaps in a good mood or i'm feelin a little blue, it happens and when i say LEAVE ME TO MY OWN DEVICES, i mean it. But its too late now isnt it, because you're too slow to understand that. Or is it ? The problem is you are bloody harassing me and no matter how slow you are, that still doesnt sit well with me because i treasure my personal space and you stepped in via deceit and that i cannot accept, so if i was to say it, you're out of the zone and you can go fuck off for all i care.
You can send your friends to ask me why i'm acting like this. You can have them tell me i'm making you so upset that you're still so upset i'm not talking to you as usual a full month after your deceitful probe into my personal thoughts. My response is so. I never said i was anything more of a friend i never had the intention, my hints were increasingly obvious. And if you're going to be SO DEPRESSED because i'm supposed to be your CLOSECLOSE friend . Then, this i have to say.
I pity your pathetic soul if i talk to you a little more for 2 weeks and suddenly i'm your whole life your entire universe and that your world crumbles because i turn you away. You cant honestly tell me you have no other friends BETTER FRIENDS who might be female, so you can say Ok this dude doesnt wanna talk, oh well forget it. Isnt that the case, now i dont think i'm being unfair here. Thats what i'm thinking
Bottom line is,DECEIT and You're bloody clingy, You dont take hints and you're just too damn slow. You do annoy me a little sometimes but i accept that. The main problem here is you bloody intruded on my personal space and you used deceit to get information i was with-holding to protect your feelings from being dashed in any way. But you went ahead and even gave me a lecture on HOW COULD YOU blahblah and tried to force a I FORGIVE YOU guilt trip on me. You go ahead and mope for all you want, my asshair would probably care more.
Go ahead , get all your little girl friends who SUDDENLY seem to pop up now huh? Get em all to probe me and say i hope she gets well soon and support you , But at the end of the day you'll still be at home alone and you can mope and do whatever it is there. Now i'm not such a perfectly cruel creature as to tell it to your face so i'm going to put it here and pretend that i'm just too busy to do anything else.
I like to keep a good impression of myself ingrained in other people's minds honestly, because i care what other people think of me. But once you push it too far, i just have to put my foot down and say thats enough.
Wont ever reach you thats for sure, but i'm sure letting off steam.
Heres a quick hint, Next time someone says Please leave me be i would like some private time to fix my thoughts. DO NOT, i repeat DO NOT EVER probe and probe and probe and probe and use lies to dig information people do not want to reveal to you. For whatever it is, because respecting people's privacy is a good social norm to uphold Furthermore, they may just be with-holding information which could be brutally truthful though damaging to your OH SO FRAGILE ego.
I withheld because i dont want to cause any ugly incidents or damage any egos.
You lied because, why? i'll never know. But if theres one thing i'm touchy about and im sure i've said it many times. Leave me be when i say leave me be.
Heres another reason why i didnt talk to you, because you're slow and you dont get it. So i cant go fast and i cant use anything more complex than a two syllable english word? Now i'm not one for doing this but a primary school kid has a better grasp of it than you and is probably faster too. So THERE thats it , THATS WHY i'd rather talk to your friend cos at least she can relate somewhat to my situation that got me down and she's a lil faster in getting it too.
P.s. You wanted the truth of what i thought of you? I told you the good points. Now you've dug out the bad points from your lies and deceit. I guess those two descriptives can be added to what i think of you now? I hope you're happy and i wish you a good day because thats the last i swear you'll ever get out of me.
Interestingly, i noticed thats about 1485 words. Woah, can i get a rant going.
Get it through your stupid thick head i dont want to talk to you, because you. annoy. Me. thats all. IF you'da left me alone i'd still be more civil. Its all your fault frankly, i asked you to just leave me be for a while but you kept probing so i said BACK OFF, and you didnt. You got your friends whom i trusted to dig information from me. Congratulations.
You succeeded in getting it. You came, asked, HOW COULD YOU SAY THAT err i was already being sensitive with my words and because i trusted the other person i told her the honest truth though softened with well chosen ambiguous words. You dug it out and you want to be hurt by it. Thats your own problem, i never wanted to say it. You were never meant to hear it. Anyhow, Congratulations again.
You've succeeded in not only losing my trust in yourself but also my trust in your friends. Though i wont blame them because, they were perhaps trying to be good friends or didnt see the whole situation in its entirety. Losing someone's trust is just the breaking point. You saying I FORGIVE YOU when i feel its clearly not any fault of mine, perhaps if i was to be generous to you i would say i shouldnt have pushed you off so bluntly BUT the repercussions and consequences of late have been no fault of mine. Asking CAN WE GO BACK TO BEING NORMAL LIKE BEFORE isnt going to change the fact you lied cheated and doublecrossed your way into my private zone.
You lost the trust, you got your friends in the same boat with you too. Because i'm never telling any of them anything again. Using guilt and asking rhetorical questions such as Do you think i am angry. Just makes it worse for your case because frankly, it should be myself asking Do you think i am upset because you cheated your way into my thoughts? How about that? Maybe instead of thinking purely of yourself you ought to think what your actions might have on me. But then again you're too stupid to think of that arent you. Yes i know i'm being harsh and quite unfair but i'm only human and i'm pissed big time.
Yes while i realise i could have been the root of this, i've tolerated this for quite long enough because if i recall i think i told you upteen times very nicely to just let me be alone or that i was tired and to just give me some space and even thanked you for your concern. Now any normal friend would say i've done my best so he'll come look for me when he wants to cos he knows i'm here for him. THATS IT. no thats not enough, you gotta dig dig dig.
I've never suggested anything of that nature perhaps i was a little careless and certain situations might have given you a silly notion like that but i've always made sure i hinted that its nothing more. Perhaps that was my bad not to realise you were THAT thick not to get it, perhaps i assumed girls were more perceptive. Apparently, not the case. If i want to put it blatantly, you annoy me because you're too damn slow and i end up going too fast but thats all right, i understand people are sometimes slower in grasping ideas. It isnt easy having to entertain a 5 year old 24/7 everyday especially when i'm not perhaps in a good mood or i'm feelin a little blue, it happens and when i say LEAVE ME TO MY OWN DEVICES, i mean it. But its too late now isnt it, because you're too slow to understand that. Or is it ? The problem is you are bloody harassing me and no matter how slow you are, that still doesnt sit well with me because i treasure my personal space and you stepped in via deceit and that i cannot accept, so if i was to say it, you're out of the zone and you can go fuck off for all i care.
You can send your friends to ask me why i'm acting like this. You can have them tell me i'm making you so upset that you're still so upset i'm not talking to you as usual a full month after your deceitful probe into my personal thoughts. My response is so. I never said i was anything more of a friend i never had the intention, my hints were increasingly obvious. And if you're going to be SO DEPRESSED because i'm supposed to be your CLOSECLOSE friend . Then, this i have to say.
I pity your pathetic soul if i talk to you a little more for 2 weeks and suddenly i'm your whole life your entire universe and that your world crumbles because i turn you away. You cant honestly tell me you have no other friends BETTER FRIENDS who might be female, so you can say Ok this dude doesnt wanna talk, oh well forget it. Isnt that the case, now i dont think i'm being unfair here. Thats what i'm thinking
Bottom line is,DECEIT and You're bloody clingy, You dont take hints and you're just too damn slow. You do annoy me a little sometimes but i accept that. The main problem here is you bloody intruded on my personal space and you used deceit to get information i was with-holding to protect your feelings from being dashed in any way. But you went ahead and even gave me a lecture on HOW COULD YOU blahblah and tried to force a I FORGIVE YOU guilt trip on me. You go ahead and mope for all you want, my asshair would probably care more.
Go ahead , get all your little girl friends who SUDDENLY seem to pop up now huh? Get em all to probe me and say i hope she gets well soon and support you , But at the end of the day you'll still be at home alone and you can mope and do whatever it is there. Now i'm not such a perfectly cruel creature as to tell it to your face so i'm going to put it here and pretend that i'm just too busy to do anything else.
I like to keep a good impression of myself ingrained in other people's minds honestly, because i care what other people think of me. But once you push it too far, i just have to put my foot down and say thats enough.
Wont ever reach you thats for sure, but i'm sure letting off steam.
Heres a quick hint, Next time someone says Please leave me be i would like some private time to fix my thoughts. DO NOT, i repeat DO NOT EVER probe and probe and probe and probe and use lies to dig information people do not want to reveal to you. For whatever it is, because respecting people's privacy is a good social norm to uphold Furthermore, they may just be with-holding information which could be brutally truthful though damaging to your OH SO FRAGILE ego.
I withheld because i dont want to cause any ugly incidents or damage any egos.
You lied because, why? i'll never know. But if theres one thing i'm touchy about and im sure i've said it many times. Leave me be when i say leave me be.
Heres another reason why i didnt talk to you, because you're slow and you dont get it. So i cant go fast and i cant use anything more complex than a two syllable english word? Now i'm not one for doing this but a primary school kid has a better grasp of it than you and is probably faster too. So THERE thats it , THATS WHY i'd rather talk to your friend cos at least she can relate somewhat to my situation that got me down and she's a lil faster in getting it too.
P.s. You wanted the truth of what i thought of you? I told you the good points. Now you've dug out the bad points from your lies and deceit. I guess those two descriptives can be added to what i think of you now? I hope you're happy and i wish you a good day because thats the last i swear you'll ever get out of me.
Interestingly, i noticed thats about 1485 words. Woah, can i get a rant going.
